Wednesday, December 29, 2004
the bad equals to a busted sewer line in the basement of our house.. Frick... merry Christmas and Happy New Year. This is going to be a costly repair... like 6-7 thousand... hmmmm
my house is a mess and tha makes for the UGLY
my house ewwwwwwww doggieee stinks to high heavens from the rock/soil having been dug up partially last night by DH and bil.
Ok to end on a note for good news.....
We got news last week that we were accepted by the INCIID the HEART program to cycle at NYC SIRM clinic with Dr. Sher and Dr. B.... but we emailed INCIID and asked them to consider moving us to the clinic in town in ST. Louis... Well our wish and request was granted. We are set for an IVF consult for January 27th 2005. YEAH.
the good the bad the ugly and the stinky.. LOL
Sunday, December 26, 2004
off Famous Barr for the next 3 nights. YEAH. it gives me time to shop!! hehe I am taking DH to go buy his tools I promised him for xmas. then off to JCPenney's to return my gloves he got me, or rather exchange them. I so need some new gloves also.
while playing on my new laptop, I turned on Amerca's store dot come and walah, my new laptop is on there. hehe COOL
DH is off work all week and I hate that I have to work and get up each morning and he gets to sleep in.. well, I really only have a 3 day week. hehe.. Thursday is my last Vacation day for the year and then Friday is a holiday for us at A A A.
ok, I need to go to bed..
more tomorrow on the updates for IVF at SIRM NYC YEAH.
Speaking of laptop... I can't download a plugin in order to get into chat rooms, get certain clips to play, etc... hmmmmmm Gateway help to the rescue later.
Lotterywinnings... i won a free ticket last night for the first time in months. Yeah.. maybe this is the turn around of the unlucky to lucky fortunes. fingers crossed.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
How pretty it is. I will be enjoying exploring the ins and outs of it all and become familiar with the shortcuts of a laptop..like investing in a wireless mouse. LOL I am not good at this finger mouse... ohhhh that sounds bad.. bahahahaha
We had a wonderful Christmas and I am very thankful for DH being such a wonderful DH.... no, not DH in the bad way, but DH as in DEAR husband. hehe
On another note... I am most likely OVULATING... OUCH. it seems to hurt in some cycles and I don't get the rhyme or reason... Most likely the Endo that surrounds my ovaries. BUT let me tell you, I got a nice Xmas Romp from DH and he liked it ..... Vitamins are really keeping the CM abundant. Shame I can't use that to get PG.... tubeless keeps that possibility to a null.
Ok, the latest update on the INCIID the HEART IVF program .... We were accepted and this past week Nancy from INCIID emailed me the following message.
We've matched you with SIRM New York City. Your contact there is
Ryan and her number is: 646-792-7476
She is out today but I've sent her an email to let her know you are
be calling her. If you want to call today, speak to Rachel or leave
a voice message. Do please call right away so we can get you into the
Thanks for your patience.
This was our reply....
Although we are so appreciative of everything INCIID has done for us and feel blessed to have been selected, because of financial constraints it will be extremely difficult for us financially to undergo treatment in NYC.
To put us in the best position possible, both financially and psychologically so that we may have a successful IVF cycle, it would be more beneficial for us to undergo treatment at the Sher institute locally here in St. Louis under the care of Dr. Ahlering. This way we can work closely with Dr. Ahlering and Dr. Jan Albrecht (Becky's perinatologist in St. Louis). Becky has spoken to Dr. Ahlering by email and he was looking forward to seeing us to consult with us as soon as the paper work on INCIID's end was completed.
We apologize if this causes any inconvenience. We were under the impression that preferring local treatments was preferred and communicated. We live and work no more than 5 miles from the clinic here in St. Louis also.
Thank you in advance for making the necessary arrangements and if there's anything we can do to assist, don't hesitate to contact us.
Jeffrey & Rebecca G
Ok, on that note, I freaked,.... NYC? OMG.. we could not do this.. it would be
too expensive... BUT after a few days time I am considering staying with the option
for NYC. I told my family at our xmas eve gathering about us possibly going to NYC and
they all said they will help us get to NYC and do this no matter the cost... Like
finding air miles from someone and hotel credit points. hmmmmmm Can we really do this?
Heck my mom and sister even said they will go with me if Jeff can't go the whole time.
It is cool to think about visiting NYC... time square,... maybe we can go see
david letterman? hmmm
Wish us luck.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Oh, other news... I think I am O'ing. What a wasted O it is... Tubeless wondergirl here and no way to get pg unless I can afford to pay a well paid doctor to get us pregnant! Another O bites the dust. Sing that Queen song to the beat of "Another O bites the dust". LOL
Off to work again today. The Sunday b4 Christmas and I have NOTHING wrapped and packaged yet to send out of town. Yikes.
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Nada on the IF front. Nothin' yet.. please instill the ability to stay sain while the wait continues.
wishes for 2005 are stirring.
Monday, December 13, 2004
I guess that with "Statistics" of "fertility", 35 is the age that fertility DECLINES. Ugh. one more... UGH
I am so behind in xmas shopping it is not funny. I have finished my niece, nephew and other nephew, but I have many many more to go. I did get my work gift done and wrapped for tomorrow's office "Rob Your Neighbor" xmas exchange. hehe A nice musical snow globe. I hope it is not broke in it's box. I hope I can find something to ROB in return also.
Off to bed. Sleepless in St. Louis was my name last night. I was up until 2 am and got up at 6:30. ewwww
I bought some fleece to try and make something of tomorrow. Wish me luck.
I ask this question because I think I got too much sleep today and now at 11:32 pm I am wide awake. Or maybe is it the fact that my insomnia finally caught up with me? I slept from 3 am-9:30, then again from 3 pm -5:30pm. my body is on overload of SLEEP today. LOL
Yup, insomniac to the tee here. I thank my paternal grandma and my dad for that gift of sleepless nights. I can drive home from the day job as tired as can be, but when I step out of the car I am wide awake and ready to go for another 12 hours it seems. I average 4.5 - 5 hours of broken sleep a night and I am not able to get the nerve up to call my GP for a script of Ambien to help.
Ambien, I LIKE it. REALLY LIKE it and that is why I am afraid to ask for help to sleep with it.
Fear of falling asleep at the wheel also grips me though. SOOOO should I ask for some?
Today is cd3 or 4, I lost count so I will try and keep my ticker up here to keep track of it. I am anxious to get an email from INCIID to find out when DH and I can set up a consult with the doctors to do our 5th FRESH IVF cycle. yes, I said 5th. I will blog tomorrow about my story that brought me to #5.
Later for now, or is it later until morning when I wake up with 4 hours of sleep.
Oh, btw, I finished this semester class of Intro to Business with a 96%. YEAH!
Sunday, December 05, 2004
Ok, I decided that after a long LONG road on my IF journey to start a place to let the thoughts flow instead of keeping them bottled up inside. I visit lots of sites on-line, but I wanted to keep one place where I can just spill the crap if needed and not have anyone block me from doing that. Sure, I have respect and feelings for people, but I just don't care to have anyone stop me from speaking my mind. F that.
Today begins that dumping, the dumping that I have longed for. here it goes.
After 5.5 yrs of IF, I have decided that I am ready to strangle Dh's family. My bil and sil are having problems ttc, but.. BIG BUT... This is the couple that has told DH and I to KEEP OUR IF to ourselves and (this was just after a miscarriage of our first set of twins) it is our personal business we are having problems ttc, not theirs. Why do I know they are having problems? Well while on vacaiton with them this past summer I happeneed to see sil showing bil a pack of CLOMID. Well hello, dear bekkiboo knows that pack of pills all too well. You can't fool me. So dh asked his bro/my bil if they needed to talk about things, we would understand. Bahahahahahaha Ok, let me step back and rephrase that. I do respect that they did not want to talk about it, but hello?! YOU FRICKIN' left your CLOMID out in the community bathroom at the condo we all shared. LOL
Ok, next issue.... this is good news.. but it will be in the next post!