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Monday, September 03, 2007

I love a great weekend, shame it has to end

What a great weekend for some camping. Even with no truck, we had generous friends take our camper out to Babler State Park and even bring it back to our storage today. Thanks Friends!

The weather was great and we even got a bonus from the St. Louis County Air Show on Saturday. I saw the blue angels flying over us and a C17 military plane also.

The dogs on the other hand were not so great. The youngest and oldest got into two different fights for no good reason. Not that any reason is good, but the oldest jumped on the middle dog Sunday night and attacked her and then again today. I had a nice long conversation with them both after that. Not that talking to a dog does much of any good, but it helped my frustration over them both. LOL

I hope to update more this week on the adoption front. Stay tuned. I have to get a feeling of how much our potential birthmother is ok with me sharing here. I can tell you though that as with the many years of going through the emotional raw stages of infertility, there are also bumpy raw states of emotions to the adoption front also. One minute you can feel so high on the euphoria trip and one moment you can feel almost like you have chest pains from the fears. You know, have you ever been so scared from something that you get short breath and chest pains from the sheer fright?! That is the feeling I get sometimes. Without knowing what to expect from one moment to the next you tend to over analyze the possible good happenings that go along with adoption and the possible sad happenings that go with it too. I will not let fear get me down though. One thing that keeps me in check is the all feet grounding advice from the social worker to keep our feet on the ground even with possible exciting news from the potential birthmother. Keep sights set forward, but be cautious and try to contain our emotions knowing that this could go either way.

Ok, back to my ebay stuff. Sales are good. I need to finish stuffing some bottle holders and get them in the mail for tomorrow.

Thanks for reading and following our adventures. I promise more soon.

5 comments:

The Phoenix said...

I hope you had a great holiday weekend. Sounds like you're cautiously optimistic about the adoption. That's a good way to be.

Bottle holders???

Shannie said...

Hey Bec,
Don't know if you remember me or not but I wanted to let you know how thrilled I am for you about your upcoming adoption. We are adopting too in February.

I have scoured your blog for updates. I miss you on INCIID.

xoxo,
Shan

Beagle said...

I agree about the weekend.
Fingers crossed for you as always on the adoption front!

Mich said...

I'm so glad that your SW is keeping you grounded--sometimes, during our adoption, I wanted to shake ours and say, "aren't excited? isn't this exciting?" but really, that's not her job...anyway, I totally get the 'cautiously optimistic' feelings....can't wait to read more updates!

katd said...

This is my first comment here - I've just found your blog from a link off one I read. We just adopted a baby girl in April, and I so know what you mean about the fear. It's different in a way from infertility, but the fear of the baby not coming home to you is very similar. Everything is crossed for you, and I am looking SO forward to reading the rest of your blog. Good luck! :)