First the good news of the nice box on the front door step:
delivered by the sometimes nice mail man today........
A box full of adoption books from a very generous cyber friend.
Books are as follows:
Adopting After Infertility : Patricia Irwin Johnston
The Adoptoin Resource Book : Louis Gilman (everything you ought ot know about creating an adoptive family)
Launching a Baby's Adoption (Practical Strategies For Parents and Professionals) : Patricia Irwin Johnston
The Complete Idiot's Guide to Adoption: Chris Adamec.
WOW... I have lots of reading to do in the next few weeks> LOL
Now the news or lack of news on the body's lack of enforcement to get back to a normal state (whatever that is) after a miscarriage....... Well I am still bleeding, but old blood so that is a good sign it is not new blood. I went in today for another BETA HCG blood test today to find out if the beta is zero or not after this loss that happened the weekend of Thanksgiving, but they NEVER CALLED me back today with the beta results. UGH.
I will be on the horn tomorrow AM at 9 am to get details. I so hope it is zero. It is sad to think after all the trying to have a baby that DH and I have been through that I would HOPE and PRAY for a zero beta. BUT I am.
Evil of them to not call me today with the blood work results.
BUT one good thing I did today was complain about the lack of sleep to the nurse that drew my blood. She was so nice to go back and get my a prescription for 15 days of ambien, which in my book means 30 days worth because that stuff is so good that I can pop the pill in 1/2 and it will do the trick for at least the next 4 weeks instead of 2 weeks!!!!!!!! YEAH. Now I promised myself I would get to the GP to get an RX for anti-depressants and I will do that tomorrow.
Ok... on to go read some pages in the adoption books to BRING some JOY into my thoughts.