surrogacy and jumping into a new homestudy

Yes, surrogacy is heavy on my mind tonight. We have one frozen ebryo left in the cryolab at MoBap with Dr. Wilbois. He is one of maybe two doctors in town that will consider doing surrogacy cycles as long as you have the embies and you have a surrogate and you have the legalities all tied up. See, I don't have a uterus any longer (after 9 babies in heaven) so I can't carry one. I can produce eggs for embies, but that is another story. So the one lone embie is waiting, frozen, for us to come put it back into a warm receptive uterus, just not mine. Do you know of anyone that has had a friend or family become their surrogate? I don't (well, most are 40 and above and not sure they would want to or be able to help us in that way.

Next step while waiting to figure out the surrogacy link....


I called the local social worker today to send me a packet for an independent home study process. See, we let our last home study we used with adopting Julia expire. So we have to start from scratch. Finger prints, physicals, lots of paper work and a new profile of us as a family of 3.

word filled wednesday

Instead of wordless wednesday today, I decided to share a few words from Julia.....


While standing at the back door yesterday, she saw Hannah, our blond dog, in the yard going potty, she turned to me and said "Mommy, I see Hannah".... I loved it because she said it with such conviction.

Tonight, after daddy had just given her a bath,she lay on her changing table and asked/said "Tickle me?!". LOL Daddy always tickles her when he is trying to dress her after a bath.

She is saying please to some things now.
She is putting 4 and 5 words together in sentences.

I LOVE IT. I am trying to cherish every moment with her since I only get to see her about 2 hours each night on week nights.

Happy Father's Day

First of all, to all of you, like myself, who have lost their father to heaven, I send a special Happy Fathers Day to those dads. I visited the gravesite of my dad yesterday. I know he was not a flower type of guy, but I just had to put something out there for him. If I could afford it, I would have put a fishing pole and cooler of beer at his grave for him to enjoy. LOL He would have loved going to the fishing reserves out in St. Charles for his Fathers Day gift. Or he would have loved to be camping and sitting in the river with his umbrella over his chair watching the drunk idiots float by. Dad, I promise I'll do that for you this summer.

It has been what seems like ages since we lost him to cancer, but I still go talk to him ever once in a while and ask him to watch over us. Don't get upset that I have taken this picture. Sure, seems morbid to some, but I love going to his grave and sitting there to talk to him. Yes, I took a picture of his grave after I placed his flowers. I wanted to show Julia where pawpaw is.


To my loving husband and wonderful daddy to our daughter, Julia, I love you and keep up the great work, Daddy!!! We waited for nearly 8 years to have a baby. I am sorry I could not bare one for you, but thankfully through the blessing of adoption, I have seen you become the daddy I knew you would always be. Julia runs through the house yelling "Daddio" and wants you to pick her up and tickle her so much until she starts her hiccups. That is what makes it all worth ever bet of the waiting we went through to become parents. Thank you for being such a wonderful daddy to her and hubby to me!

wordless wednesday

Is she potty training herself?

I am so excited.. my daughter just went pee pee in her potty... WOOOHOOOO! She asked to go sit on it .. I Put her on there and then turned out of the room for a split second. I came back and and she kept pointing to the potty saying "Mess".... she pee-pee'd. !!!! YIPPPEEEE... Is potty training going to be early?

Quote of the week

as I was trying to put on her pajama pants, she grabbed them from me and said, "No, I do it".

Taking the big plunge .. again .... home study bound .... for number two

Yes, we are thinking of staring our home study process to adopt again.

Ahhhhh, the stir of emotions. A phone call tonight provoked us to dive into this seriously. We were thinking we would start the process again in a few months time, but after a call we got tonight to see if we had an updated "family" profile to potentially show to a situation with our original agency from 2006, we got excited, but decided to pass at this moment. To some it might bring heart aches if they pass on situations, but we are honestly not ready. We have to start the home study from scratch because we basically let it "expire".


We have decided there is no better time than now to start the home study process over again. Heck, it will take at least 2 months to gather the paperwork, get physicals for all 3 of us, finger prints, etc.... so that will bring us to the later part of summer so we will then get back into the process of looking for potential matches after we complete a picture profile to the perspective birthparents to review to see if they would like to select us as a family to become adoptive parents to their child. Bring a sibling home for Julia. Grow our family as we have always dreamed of and continue to enjoy motherhood and fatherhood. Loving, Smiling, laughing, teaching and hugging each moment in live as we grow with our children.

Ahhhhhhhh.... Just had to share this with you all tonight. Thanks for listening.

1 2 3 ... ready set go

those are the fun sayings my daughter has picked up. ONNNNEEEE.... TWOOOOOOO... THREEEEE....... and she also said REd, Seetttt, GOOOOOO. We need to work on that word "Ready". LOL

Do you have lots of plans for this weekend? We were suppose to go camping, but a childhood friend of DH's passed away and he went to the wake tonight and the funeral is tomorrow. So we are not camping again until July. Wahhhhhhh!

Going to get my coupons ready. Kmart is having a double coupon week next week plus I have my 5.00 off any purchase of 50 or more (diapers, people, diapers!! ) so that is a great bargain. I think the double is up to 2.00 so if you have a 2.00 off diapers, it becomes 4.00 off. Yipppeeee.

We are meeting a friend and her son (adopted through the same agency as Julia) at the park tomorrow to play in the water fountains. FUN. I can't wait to see them. Then I think we will come back home, nap, then swim in our pool. Ahhhh, summer is here.

Speaking of summer, I can't believe that when I was a child until I was 19 and moved out, I never had air conditioning in my house. Only a window air conditioner in one room. We lived with the pool open and a huge attic fan that kept us cool in the summer. Did you have air conditioning when you grew up? It is a luxury I am thankful for each day we have it on. Meantime, as in today, the air is off and the windows open with lots of fans going. Ahhh, beautiful weather.

Hoping you all have a beautiful weekend.