Offering my services.....

baby sitting services that is.

Jaded talked me into it. Email me at twogoots@yahoo.com if you need details.

All funds received while babysitting will be put in the bank for our adoption funding. I can't wait to see that balance grow.

Oh, I need to update that thermometer with some of my ebay sales I have made over the last 2 weeks. Hey.. every dollar counts, right ... Made so far. $32.00 after costs of products sold.

so much of the same

no good ebay sales.

No adoption news from the agency or other potential situations.

Hot weather and cranky days.

wonders if I will have a job come july 1st 2007 when my boss officially retires. Frick

ummmmmm

I need ot find a way to make some money for this adoption process and it is not coming in good ways. I am putting out more than making and it is not fair. I work my ass off and it pisses me off to know I am in the hole with trying to make money. WTF? I know some things take risk to get good sales, but man this is really pinching me hard. God Love my mother. She is trying hard and it is just not fair I can't get the sales to make this work. I guess I will break down and take on working a 2nd job again since DH won't. Sorry, but I have asked him repeatedly and he has yet to buck up and pitch in on working 2 jobs. Sure, cleaning house and mowing is a job, but I mean one that rakes in the CASH or even uncle Sam money Sorry DH, if you read this or if others that read this tell him this, I hope you won't tell him that, but I will mention it to him again tomorrow night.

FRICK....why is this so fucking hard to figure out? DO you know how hard it is to come up with nearly 18,000 dollars UP FRONT for the adoption costs? Yes, It really does cost that much for a domestic infant from the USA. And honestly that is on the conservative side of costs. Go ahead and ask me what costs are involved .. I will be glad to fill you in. SO far we have put out 3500.00 and 1/2 of that was my bday gift to me from my mom. Bless her.


Ok. go ahead.. ask me why it costs so much. I am up for a good discussion

trying the quilt one more time

check it out.
(click on "check it out" above to see the auction on ebay. )
also click on "view sellers other items "

quilt not selling... rather. .did not sell

less than 5 minutes to go in the auction for the lady bug quilt and Nada. lots of lurkers.. but not one bid. not sure if I should be sad or not///////////////
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revised..

It did not sell. Hmmm, can't find the market for this item now. What should I do to list it? might just try craigslist. If you want to see it that way then please post a comment here let me know what you think. Any help or suggestion is greatly appreciated.

trying to find that market for personalized items and I guess I can now try craigslist then.

pumping up

on my way home today I decided to stop by kangarookids on manchester. Not a bad resale shop for kids and adults.. ok prices, but most importantly I struck up a conversation with the worker there about breastfeeding. Yes, adoptive breastfeeding. She was very very excited I stopped in.. Thanks to a few in town that mentioned the place as a huge supporting outlet of nursing bras, pumps for sale and rent, herbal supplies to help with milk production. So my stop was to check out their store and scope out their breastfeeding supplies. I felt like I struck gold. They had both herbal supplements I was looking for and I WILL go back and buy them there. They had the mothers milk tea, well it was out of stock but some was on order.

SO in our conversation, the worker there told me about one of their breastfeeding support groups they have and luckily they JUST added an evening support group. WOW> I I am excited. I am serious about doing this. DH is VERY supportive of this.. now I just need to stay on the protocol (prep) for a few months(today is the 3rd full week of bpc's and now dom) and then stop the bcp's and continue on the domperidone and fenegreek herbs and PUMP PUMP PUMP and then hopefully we will have latching when the baby arrives. This will be interesting in a few months when I start pumping to see how I will do this at work. My work is not breastfeeding friendly to the new mom and even more not supportive of an adoptive breastfeeding mother to be! SO I will try and change that. Even if I have to go to my car and pump. OMG.. Yes, I have seen women do that and yes the pump I have does have a cig outlet adaptor to allow for this MILKING machine to be carried about to keep up the supply.

I have suffered through many losses though my life, but with his support I will try this to help feed and nurture and bond with our future child. I am one that believes that if you don't try something you have a passion about at least once(for most things in life, not all!) then you will have some sort of regret if you had any bit of thought of trying for having NOT tried. Just because I did not give birth to our future child does not mean I can't supply some or even a good portion of our childs nutrition in their beginning of life. His or her life is important to me. Our child will be given every chance in our eyes of a full life and in that one of those things we can try and do is to give fulfilling nutrition. Sure, I can't produce colostrum .. the first nutrition a birthmother produces when a child is born before the full milk comes in, but I can give him or her many many months or even a few years of goodness this way.

asklenore.com is one site I frequent often. I plan on utilizing the LLL of St. Louis' contact for adoptive breastfeeding. I met her once at bbru at the adoption event a few months back. Even more these days I am finding articles online and in magazines about this adoptive breastfeeding protocol. I plan on talking more about it as I progress through this process.

We have my doctors support on this also. He was very interested in my starting this protocol and tomorrow at my post-surgery visit I will be talking to him about this again. I know that I can end up with some issues with complications physically, but I am sure he will be there for me as he is for any breastfeeding mother. Our pediatrition we decided to go with also is very interested in watching us progress through this process once we have a baby in our arms. I love the support. If we were in a small town, you bet I would not have this kind of support. My family, well that is another issue. I hope they embrace this with us adopting, but if not I am ok with that also. I am sure I will do this and all I can do is ask my family and DH's family and our friends for the ut most support knowing that the baby benefits 100% from this process.

stay tuned.
my protocol is working
my boobies are growing
my life is moving forward
now bring on the good news of a match!!!

working hard

working hard on the next idea for fundraisers for the adoption front. I hope to post pictures or links to sales again soon. Check back in a day or two.

do you like quilts?

Do you like custom made items?

Do you like ladybugs?

It WAS my due date month

I was due with this last angel baby on July 21st 2006. Sadly our baby did not make it very far along in my womb. I so wanted to have a nice pregnancy after having had 4 uterine miscarriages and 2 ectopics. I so wanted this baby to hang in there, although that lingering thought of doubt hung in my mind and I never got to see our baby flourish and thrive in me. Our baby was a wee little one at 6w1d gestation when I lost him/her very violently at home. I would have been very pregnant right now if my stupid body had not yet again rejected and made me gutwrenchingly miscarry again.

sorry, in a very foul mood today. Just sad for my angel baby that would have been born this month.

I think a call to the doc is warranted. My moods are swinging lots these days. Maybe some of this is caused by my trying to fool myself into thinking I could try adoptive breastfeeding and maybe the progesterone bc pills are causing these mood swings. Poor DH.. I promise to be nicer to him tomorrow.

I sat at dinner tonight and said to myself, I am not fun company right now. I need to retreat and regroup and just grieve this loss of never having a child myself.

off to go watch some NASA channel ....... cool earth shots from the shuttle right now.

Thanks for being here my cyber friends. Thanks for a shoulder to lean on.

so DH never reads my blog so

he asked me about it tonight and I read him the last entry and he said I wrote a very good poem.

dana.. hehe.. He said you saw this last entry but he never reads my blog so I will dictate every post to him now. HAHA